Requiem
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I had a profound dream last night. I’ve been reading and watching testimonials about DMT experiences which I think was the background of this dream. I have never taken any DMT before. I am by no means a person who has had any experience with it. I realize some people have had deeply spiritual experiences and others have felt a terrorizing, overwhelming, horror. I’ve never been brave enough to take it, but I believe it could be a gateway to somewhere. I have had intense dreams that made me wonder where they came from. Sometimes they just feel so real after remembering detail after detail.
I dreamed of the “Machine Elves” that people describe in their hallucinations. They looked like little bipedal creatures made of liquid bismuth. They were small, maybe only four feet tall, and their geometric patterns constantly reshaped themselves. I can’t come up with a piece of art to display them, but here is something generated by Midjourney art A.I.
They shepherded me into a room and explained to me that there were layers to reality. They said that humans were an ingredient that made the layer we inhabit possible, but like a cake, it was the interplay between these layers that made the larger whole.
A human woman stepped into the room. She wasn’t just familiar; she was someone I recognized across multiple lifetimes, someone who may have looked different and even had been a different gender across multiple re-incarnations. I loved this entity, representing themself as a woman. She told me that we had found each other time and time again and would continue to do so, however, not in “this sequence”. I took it to mean this life I am in now where I am known as Alex. She explained that my mission necessitated our separation this time, and that I am supposed to learn how to do something, something that will change me, and which I am to teach others how to do.
She used a word to describe it that made total sense in the dream, but my waking mind can neither remember nor fully comprehend it. But I got the sense that my waking mind has interpreted and spun that mission into the creation of the Amaranth Chronicles. My mission was not necessarily to create such a thing but that in doing so, I will learn whatever it is I am supposed to learn.
She explained this was the only way, but I wasn’t completely alone in this life, that to some degree we take something of our previous versions into our new lives and that this was the seed that had blossomed into the Lithia character.
She explained that this was her gift in “the sequence” to try to remind me of our truth together. She explained to me that this was the essence of “soul love” and that she missed me but was excited to see what I made of this “sequence” without her. She said that if I did not learn whatever this “thing” was that in my next life I would have to start over, but that I had all the time in the universe to learn it and not to worry, that we would be reunited eventually.
I remained with her for a time after that. I recall the feeling of her presence and it was as if I was catching up with an old friend who I had not seen in 36 years.
I woke up from the dream in tears with a sensation as palpable as a vivid nightmare but in somewhat of the opposite emotional direction. It was a deeply profound experience…and frankly…for some reason, I hope it was only a dream…
PROFOUND UPDATE!
In December 2021, I experienced a sudden medical emergency that led me to the discovery I had Astrocytoma brain tumor. The journey since then has been nothing short of beyond terrifying and extraordinary, and I've shared many blog posts about these profound experiences on this website. The encounters and insights I've had are truly remarkable.
